Well everyone said it would happen and that it wouldnt work out. They were in fact correct.... how could a 22 year old and 25 year old work out? It did for a long time... but all good things must come to an end. Here is the reasoning behind it.... I am 25 years old. I want a family and children and to be married in my near future. These are normal things that I think about as a 25 year old woman. Him... being 22... looks at me like im insane when I even mention these things. He wants to spend time with his friends on a daily basis no matter what plans hes made with me... he thinks its ok to just blow me off and ditch me for his friends. As long as hes happy.
Now in his defense... I am a bitch.... I have been through hell and back and have dealt with the worst of the worst of MEN in general. Take a look at my track record.... noone can handle me. And I have not completely put my past behind me. Therefore he said he cant get through my layers and simply gave up over one stupid petty fight.
I dont need to be with anyone whos not willing to fight for me and put in the effort. You should never waste your time on someone whos not willing to do the same for you.
I did nothing but EVERYTHING for him. I drove him around due to his not being able to drive issue... I went to visit him WEEKLY when he was away at school. I went to his mothers gravesite with him whenever he asked me to.... sat with him... cried with him.... brought him and his dad anything they needed.... but I am the bad guy right? I refuse to accept that... therefore I will get over this....
I am a strong woman and everything thats happened to me has only made me stronger. So it was a good 7-8 months.... but now.... its time to move on.... I love him more than life itself but I cannot be with someone who can watch me cry and remain emotionless. So byebye.....
-Brittany
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