*ALWAYS go with your gut instinct!!!!!*

Let me just say right now.... when you feel something... even if its the smallest feeling that something is wrong.... I can almost guarantee something IS! .... whenever you suspect something just is NOT right... it probably isnt.... I come to realize that today.

I always thought... that for the one year of my relationship I was in... that something just wasnt right. I had to even DELETE my own boyfriend from facebook! just so I didnt have to see certain things other women were saying. No I do not think he cheated on me. but yes... I thought he had a little something for a few chicks on his fb... that he knew... and come to realize I was CORRECT. because I am almost 100 percent positive he is WITH the one girl I hated the most... its like a kick in the stomach. People can sit and say
Oh Britinee get over it already its  been 4 months." But look.... it was a YEAR of my life.... can you imagine having even the slightest idea that your boyfriend that you loved more than anything had feelings for someone else... you two break up and he goes to her? Its like I said... a kick in the kidneys to me.... especially considering how much I did and went through with this kid. Just kills me. I fully believe in karma and I hope to God they both just one day feel the way Ive felt the last 4 months. because honest to God.... I wish this upon nobody else..... its  A HORRIBLE HELPLESS SUCKY FEELING! breakups suck... and just like The Script said "when a heart breaks it dont break even!" meaning... one of em are gonna hurt worse... one person has to hurt a ton more than the other... and this time it just happened to be me... but now let me quote Adele... "I wont let you close enough to hurt me... no I wont ask you... you to just desert me I cant give you... what you think you gave me... its time to say goodbye to TURNING TABLES!" I shouldve listened to that quote the first time I was dumped. damnit Adele... where were u then! ... anyways... sucks that my blogs are mostly about this... but this is the one thing thats caused me more heartache... emotional pain.. PHYSICAL PAIN... and mental breakdowns than anything else ever has.... besides losing my gram.... I completely lost myself... and I never thought I would but I take this as a lesson learned.... and I will eventually move on and be happy again... because I deserve THE BEST! and so do all of you.....