Life isnt that bad after all....

Anytime you think your life is bad.... you really need to sit back and think about all the millions and millions of people who have it a lot worse than you. Truth is.... you will look back on your problems a few months or years from now and say "what the fuck was I thinking? I Love my life.... I was such an idiot." But then there are some problems that actually do stick by you and never leave you.... and haunt you . You have to either face the demons or just let it go or you will put yourself in an early grave. My life is not that bad... actually my life is pretty great. I just had some unfortunate events happen the last couple years. I thought your 20's were supposed to be the best years of your life. When realistically your 20's are when you find your identity and who you truly are. They are the hardest years in my opinion but who am I to say... I havent reached my 30's or 40's yet. But what I DO KNOW is that my mom was married with two kids by my age.... my dad was married TWICE with 4 kids by my age.... and my younger sisters been married and almost divorced and my older sister and older brother already have children. Why do I feel like I am so behind? Am I behind or am I just smart? I do not know. I could be alone forever.... whos to tell? Nobody knows. Or I could run into the guy of my dreams and begin my life tomorrow. Life is so unpredictable it makes me sick. I wish I had a layout of my life sometimes but what the fun in that right? I feel like I planned my life out so much and none of it happened the way I wanted.... maybe thats why I feel like I am such a disappointment... to myself and my parents..... Im constantly told by my mom that she wants grandchildren and "Brittany when are you going to have kids?" Well guys... probably when I find someone I love.... MAYBE.... u never know. Noone knows.... but I know one thing... My life is far too precious to give to JUST ANYONE.... Ive given this heart of mine to one too many people and Im holding onto it for dear life from now on.....